But I like to imagine that I do something similar.
Film school doesn't have highly structured curricular like med school, or a law degree might. In truth film schools vary greatly from university to university, ranging from experimental, independant, television, mainstream, writing, cinematography and technical filmmaking. What you get out of film school depends greatly on where you go, what you sign up for and what you put into it.
Of course, nothing can replace some of the equipment experience and technical expertise that film school often affords you but with some guts, a few extra dollars and a real obsession for the craft, you might be able to at least get a bit of a head start without the 100,000 dollar pricetag.
I'm a bit of a film buff myself, but I've only recently reached the level of 'obsessive'. I may not be able to rattle of the names of directors without a second thought, but I know my way around a camera and I can watch a movie and analyze the purpose, effect and cinametic elements without too much pause. The truth is I've always been a fan of film and television and I think it was inevitable that I persue a career in film to some degree; but I've only just come to realize it.
As a kid I was extremely shy, reserved and painfully phobic of the world around me. The one thing I was always able to do, despite my social inadequacy was perform. I often staged shows on the classically sloped stage that was my driveway, crewing it with kids from around the neighborhood. I admired film, art and television. I dreamed of being an actor, or a painter or a musician. I've always been able to imagine myself in that sort of world, creating and inspiring people to create. I think it was the immortality of it all that drew me in as a child. Most of my fears grew from the terrible knowledge that we all would die, one day or another, but I was also mortified by the concept of living forever. The only thing that I could find comfort in was the sort of Gilgamesh-like worship of the names that had come before me. To look at something and say "These poeple have been here, and they did that". What an ability. To a five or six year old kid, there is no greater magic.
I don't look for immortality anymore. But I still love film. I probably always will. Yet I hadn't really considered it as anything more than a passing interest for most of my life. Although my parents were particularly good at allowing us kids to follow our personal interests, I never felt like film was really something my parents would be super enthusiastic to hear as a career plan. Let's be honest, everybody thinks they're gonna hit it big in the industry and very few people actually do. There's not a lot of safety in the arts, in terms of job security, particularly given the current economy. Compared to my two older brothers too, it pales slightly. My oldest brother, the brainiac, works for the justice department. My athletic brother is training to be an EMT. I'm pretty smart myself, an I.B. graduate and I'm spending all my free time and money on making YouTube videos. Let's be honest, it's not terribly prestigious. It's a hell of a lot of fun though, and it's actually been an incredable experience and a great learning tool. I run an immersive A.R.G. and it's very time consuming, and extremely fun. Getting to work every side of the show; acting, prop building, costuming, directing, filming and editting, has taught me a vast amout in a short time.
It's also the future of entertainment. Let's be honest, we don't really utalize the internet to it's fullest. We use it as a T.v. or a giant chatroom, or a very convienant mall. But we never combine any of those aspects. This is where I find the most satisfaction in what I do. It's the innovation, the trials, and the constant problem solving that comes with a small budget, small crew, major project like the one I work on. But that's all I can say about it, until it's finished, but one day I promise, I'll give you a full report.
In the meantime this blog will serve as my outpouring of learning as I work my through the Film School of my brain. Sometimes I'll be commenting on books, websites, or tools; sometimes I'll be talking about the art itself or even reviewing the films that I watch or study.
Virtual film brain.
Anyway, hopefully it's not too insane. But it probably will be.
Cheers.